ahhh oriuiejrlwgherugjlwrjfnlwgn;wk I'm only up this late because I'm still on a high of emotion with everything that has happened tonight.
Here I am in my hotel bed in Syracuse, NY... one show away from performing at home and thought tonight would just be another night of Legally Blonde- no complaints! :) I had a friend coming to see the show today who goes to Syracuse and who I've known since high school so I was really excited.
As many know I'm a member of the ensemble but also cover/understudy the role of Pilar. During the first act my castmate who plays Pilar had hurt her ankle and wasn't feeling the greatest about it. Well right before I went on in my track for "So Much Better" our dance captain came up to me and asked if I was ready and I replied "yes". ..and so the adventure began!
No matter how much you may rehearse/watch the track that you're understudying/etc there's nothing like knowing you are going on right then and there NOW- on the fly! I can't even tell you the first thing I thought about. It was a rush of so many different emotions. I had to just keep taking deep breaths and reminding myself to take things moment by moment. I am so thankful to the cast for offering all that they could do to make me feel the most comfortable. My roomie playing Margot and my gurrr playing Serena were a major help since the three girls are with each-other the whole show. I don't know what I would've done without them and I mean the WHOLE rest of the cast being there, giving winks onstage, sitting in the wings just rooting me on. That encouragement went a LONG way and reminded me that I could do it with everyone's help. So many times I looked up and just praised our God for being with me every step of the way as well. Unreal :*)
So I did it! I had a great time and was on this even emotion of really frightened AND really excited. hahahah What is so different about Pilar compared to my track is that with my track I don't have too much traffic to worry about and more costume changes and with Pilar it's very traffic heavy- worrying about who you have to walk around and through at a certain time. It really kept my mind on the go just constantly thinking about the next thing but still staying in the moment w/everyone else AS another character. I have never understudied before and I honestly think it's an amazing thing to experience and go through. SO it went alright with a lot of people-EVERYONE's help. Thank you, God. Seriously was overwhelmed with happiness and tears.
I had a great time and learned so much in the last couple of hours.
I'm really learning to NOT beat myself up over every mistake made and to keep pushing forward which is a good thing! BUT I am SO happy the original Pilar is feeling better!!! a good good thing!!!
SO one more show in Syracuse, hopefully with no injuries and then I am HOME for a weekend :) I have my mom, dad, some family and wonderful boyfriend and friends to look forward to. I hope they enjoy the show. It's gunna be crazy performing on that Scranton stage!! AHH it's HAPPENING!!!!!... i guess anything really could happen.
